Today’s lie: “I didn’t feel fat back then.” [I’ll be starting a new series of blog posts about certain lies ED likes for us to believe. In a sense, it will be like “Mythbusters!”] In recovery, or after, maybe even if you’ve never had an ED but were thinner before-it’s easy to think (especially after… Read More I didn’t feel fat back then. (Ep.1: Ed Lies Debunked)
It’s weird when you just blend in. You’ve been standing out (or in your mind you have) for so long, it gave you validation. Then, you look around and see you’re no different really. At that point, you can do 1 of 2 things: A. Get back to that place that made you stand out… Read More Just like er’ryone else.
It’s you who always tells me I’ve gone wrong. That weight gain is MY fault, but it’s YOURS. You’ve made me cry more tears in one year than I could have imagined. You always tell me I might as well die. You say there is no more hope for me now. You sneaked into my life, introduced yourself through… Read More Dear Ed,
If you give a mouse a cookie or, You choose to leave a cult- Be careful cuz ‘You’re Crazy‘ ‘You’ve fallen’ & ‘You’re cold’ …Or, maybe ‘You’re just lazy.’ You dare once ask a question, Soon they’ll start asking you: “Who do you think you are?” Who me? Who are you talking to? “What do you… Read More If You Choose To Leave A Cult- my little poem
I was looking forward to seeing one of my doctors today. Typically, we discuss how things have been going lately, how medication is affecting me, and where I’m at emotionally. She weighs me when I arrive (blind weigh ins), but we don’t actually talk about how much I weigh. My last two visits, I asked… Read More NO- the perfect word.
‘Tis a funny moment I encountered as I drove home just a few days ago. I was listening to Pandora (upbeat music of course) when a song came on that intrigued me. All I heard from it was “Celebrate the Rain,” so of course, I felt like I’m trying to “celebrate the rain” in my… Read More It’s a heart issue.
We all know there’s a time for everything. Seasons change. Battles are fought. Freedom is sought after throughout all time. My name is Anna and I chose Jesus. You are you. You choose what you believe in. From the beginning, God gave humanity a choice. He never forced His wonderful Self onto us. He’s far too… Read More Thriving in your time.
I want to make a list of things that have changed since July 5th, 2015. Today marks exactly 6 months from the day I talked to my doctor and was diagnosed with being underweight, having amenorrhea, vitamin deficiency, and an eating disorder. Most days have been hard, I’m not gonna lie. Quitting drugs, having my heart broken, etc.… Read More My 6-Month Miniversary
I woke up early this morning, Dec 31st, the last day of 2015. Yesterday I thought I wouldn’t have time to write the post I promised to, but hey here I am, wide awake to tell you a story. In previous posts I’ve talked about insecurities and different factors that contributed to my eating disorder. Today,… Read More 2015 ED exposed (TW)
“You’re too sensitive,” I’ve heard it said. “Don’t take it personal, give it to God, you’re too serious,”the voices chimed. And I agreed with them for so long… I thought they were right. I figured the Normal Folk spoke truth to me and something was wrong: with me. As if. As if God makes mistakes… Read More You’re too sensitive.