ED mentalities are tricky little (actually, not-so little) monsters. If you struggle with an ED, oftentimes you either use a calorie counting app, or have nutrition facts memorized to the T, and can count your daily intake in your very own, busy head. In recovery, you usually get a meal plan. It might be strict, or it might… Read More Eating less than you think.
Last summer I told myself, “I shall try recovery. I don’t think it will be worth it, but I’ll take a risk. If it won’t be worth it, I’ll just go back to Ana. If it will- I’ll let others know recovery is worth it.” So now that’s my job. Lately I haven’t been writing much.… Read More Yes, it will be worth it.
It’s pretty eye-opening to know that someone on a magazine cover could have facial parts from multiple people! I know media influenced my perception of beauty a lot. Last year, my sister told me, “Look around, what do you see? THIS is reality. THESE people are reality. What you see in the media is not real… Read More Blog post worthy- “The dangerous ways ads see women”
You lack appetite just a few days. You got sick and couldn’t stomach anything. You didn’t have time, needed to go grocery shopping, or got distracted. You default. Although I’m “recovered,” I’ve noticed a little trend in my mind. As soon as I feel nauseous or anything else and choose not to eat, I… Read More The Default.
Just a few reads this time! (Due to my stolen phone 😦 & I was collecting quite a list of awesome links saved on there too!!) The Huffington Post- ‘I feel fat’: How to Feel Instantly Better in Your Body http://www.huffingtonpost.com/greta-gleissner/body-image_b_2238291.html 2. Recovery Warriors- “Eating Disorders and Depression: How They’re Related” Eating Disorders and… Read More Link Love 3/19
(Ep.2: Ed Lies Debunked) Today’s lie: “You can eat like that, but I can’t. When you’ve got some eating issues, you look at others and are forgiving of them. It’s easy to think, “Well, maybe you can eat like that, but I can’t. The diet you have, doesn’t make you huge. If I were to eat… Read More You can eat like that, but I can’t. Ep.2
It’s weird when you just blend in. You’ve been standing out (or in your mind you have) for so long, it gave you validation. Then, you look around and see you’re no different really. At that point, you can do 1 of 2 things: A. Get back to that place that made you stand out… Read More Just like er’ryone else.
If you give a mouse a cookie or, You choose to leave a cult- Be careful cuz ‘You’re Crazy‘ ‘You’ve fallen’ & ‘You’re cold’ …Or, maybe ‘You’re just lazy.’ You dare once ask a question, Soon they’ll start asking you: “Who do you think you are?” Who me? Who are you talking to? “What do you… Read More If You Choose To Leave A Cult- my little poem
I was looking forward to seeing one of my doctors today. Typically, we discuss how things have been going lately, how medication is affecting me, and where I’m at emotionally. She weighs me when I arrive (blind weigh ins), but we don’t actually talk about how much I weigh. My last two visits, I asked… Read More NO- the perfect word.
‘Tis a funny moment I encountered as I drove home just a few days ago. I was listening to Pandora (upbeat music of course) when a song came on that intrigued me. All I heard from it was “Celebrate the Rain,” so of course, I felt like I’m trying to “celebrate the rain” in my… Read More It’s a heart issue.