Last week, I got a new book called “Almost Anorexic.” As I began reading it, I could heard Ana’s voice whisper, “That was you! You weren’t REALLY anorexic! Why don’t we try this again? You can do ‘better’ (a.k.a. get smaller) than where you were before!” (In my head I hear Ludacris rapping “How low can you go?”) But even Cady… Read More ED as a 1st priority.
ED Recovery-ish Stuff: “Set Point Theory” (Study) The Effects of Under-eating (Article) Random: Personality Test (free) My result: Encouraging God stuff: Overcoming A Storm (newsletter) Struggles used for God’s glory (blog) “Truths” we allow into our lives (blog) And at least one music video: This song never gets annoying! “Legacy”
(Technically I still have 2 days left. But since Tuesday’s are #TransformationTuesday’s, I’m sharing this today.) One year ago, I made the conscious decision to expose a secret I was smothered by for nearly 4 years: Anorexia. Since then my life has radically changed. I cannot even explain how hard the journey of recovery has been-… Read More 1 YEAR ED-IVERSARY!
Last summer I told myself, “I shall try recovery. I don’t think it will be worth it, but I’ll take a risk. If it won’t be worth it, I’ll just go back to Ana. If it will- I’ll let others know recovery is worth it.” So now that’s my job. Lately I haven’t been writing much.… Read More Yes, it will be worth it.
It’s pretty eye-opening to know that someone on a magazine cover could have facial parts from multiple people! I know media influenced my perception of beauty a lot. Last year, my sister told me, “Look around, what do you see? THIS is reality. THESE people are reality. What you see in the media is not real… Read More Blog post worthy- “The dangerous ways ads see women”
Option A: Fully let go of all control, restrictions, and forbidden foods. Allow your body to rest as long as it needs. Option B: Baby steps. Long, constant, grueling baby steps. Instead of skipping dinner you eat a bowl of broccoli. A few months later, instead of eating egg whites you eat the egg with… Read More 2 Types of Recovery.
It’s weird when you just blend in. You’ve been standing out (or in your mind you have) for so long, it gave you validation. Then, you look around and see you’re no different really. At that point, you can do 1 of 2 things: A. Get back to that place that made you stand out… Read More Just like er’ryone else.
My wardrobe has changed at least 4 times. I’ve gone up about 5 sizes. (Nobody told me to expect that in recovery!) Getting dressed used to be simple, now it’s a bit of a stress. Put a shirt on- too tight, slip some pants on- visible bulges, skirt and leggings- have to pull the back part… Read More The Shopping Challenge
I wake up feeling rested. My sleeping has improved quite a bit. I have my cup of Joe, but don’t feel like eating yet. I start getting ready, brushing my hair. I “body-check” my back. Ed screams, “Back rolls! You’ve got back rolls, you’ve NEVER had back rolls!” I panic. I lose it just a… Read More Ed Attack.
I’m a feeler. If you don’t care for feelings, that’s fine. Quite frankly, I can’t stop feeling. I feel it all. Somehow, them feelings also lead me to be discerning and passionate and wise. Eating Disorder Recovery: My #1 Definition: Feels like you’re walking blindly to a destination you’re only hoping exists. Faith is your… Read More What Recovery “Feels” Like