ED Recovery-ish Stuff: “Set Point Theory” (Study) The Effects of Under-eating (Article) Random: Personality Test (free) My result: Encouraging God stuff: Overcoming A Storm (newsletter) Struggles used for God’s glory (blog) “Truths” we allow into our lives (blog) And at least one music video: This song never gets annoying! “Legacy”
I call my sister. “How’s your day?” she asks. She always knows there’s a reason I call, especially if it’s during my time at work. “It was good, until like the last two hours,” I reply. She asks why. “I just feel bad. I feel bad about eating,” I say. It was just yesterday that she… Read More The little crash.
For my Issues in Diversity class, I had to come up with a “Changemaker” presentation. So wherever you have a bias, you participate in an event and interview the type of person you have a bias against. I chose to do the over-weight population. In the middle of my ED, I used a lot of… Read More Death.
You lack appetite just a few days. You got sick and couldn’t stomach anything. You didn’t have time, needed to go grocery shopping, or got distracted. You default. Although I’m “recovered,” I’ve noticed a little trend in my mind. As soon as I feel nauseous or anything else and choose not to eat, I… Read More The Default.
Just a few reads this time! (Due to my stolen phone 😦 & I was collecting quite a list of awesome links saved on there too!!) The Huffington Post- ‘I feel fat’: How to Feel Instantly Better in Your Body http://www.huffingtonpost.com/greta-gleissner/body-image_b_2238291.html 2. Recovery Warriors- “Eating Disorders and Depression: How They’re Related” Eating Disorders and… Read More Link Love 3/19
Ed is a life-sucker. Ana wants your loyalty above every relationship. Like an addiction, you find yourself making excuses, befriending denial, and even treating the ones you love most like a B when it comes to your food and your rituals. After a month of half-crapping The Recovery Life, I decided yesterday that I would invite… Read More golden nuggets.
It’s you who always tells me I’ve gone wrong. That weight gain is MY fault, but it’s YOURS. You’ve made me cry more tears in one year than I could have imagined. You always tell me I might as well die. You say there is no more hope for me now. You sneaked into my life, introduced yourself through… Read More Dear Ed,
My wardrobe has changed at least 4 times. I’ve gone up about 5 sizes. (Nobody told me to expect that in recovery!) Getting dressed used to be simple, now it’s a bit of a stress. Put a shirt on- too tight, slip some pants on- visible bulges, skirt and leggings- have to pull the back part… Read More The Shopping Challenge
I wake up feeling rested. My sleeping has improved quite a bit. I have my cup of Joe, but don’t feel like eating yet. I start getting ready, brushing my hair. I “body-check” my back. Ed screams, “Back rolls! You’ve got back rolls, you’ve NEVER had back rolls!” I panic. I lose it just a… Read More Ed Attack.