My entire life I’ve been Christian. Even more so, I was a Christian who grew up in an overwhelmingly religious environment. The rules were: No saying “Oh my God” No secular music or Christian music that belonged to the rock or rap genre No hair dying, nail coloring, or makeup wearing No having short hair No… Read More The ONE time I got mad at God
Last week, I got a new book called “Almost Anorexic.” As I began reading it, I could heard Ana’s voice whisper, “That was you! You weren’t REALLY anorexic! Why don’t we try this again? You can do ‘better’ (a.k.a. get smaller) than where you were before!” (In my head I hear Ludacris rapping “How low can you go?”) But even Cady… Read More ED as a 1st priority.
ED Recovery-ish Stuff: “Set Point Theory” (Study) The Effects of Under-eating (Article) Random: Personality Test (free) My result: Encouraging God stuff: Overcoming A Storm (newsletter) Struggles used for God’s glory (blog) “Truths” we allow into our lives (blog) And at least one music video: This song never gets annoying! “Legacy”
(Technically I still have 2 days left. But since Tuesday’s are #TransformationTuesday’s, I’m sharing this today.) One year ago, I made the conscious decision to expose a secret I was smothered by for nearly 4 years: Anorexia. Since then my life has radically changed. I cannot even explain how hard the journey of recovery has been-… Read More 1 YEAR ED-IVERSARY!
In one of my recent posts, I mentioned trying to get off anti-depressants. Let me trade identities with Mr.Frank for a second- I’m back on those suckers. Not because I was dying of depression, but because my body felt so exhausted! I jumped off of them way too quickly, and I had a horrible time trying… Read More Medication, boys, and real life.
Let’s play a game of interpretation. Let me help you understand what an individual who struggles, or has struggled, with an eating disorder hears when you say the things you do: Eating disorders have a language of their own. (Let me just say I write these things only to help the communication between someone who… Read More 10 Triggering Comments an ED person hears:
Last summer I told myself, “I shall try recovery. I don’t think it will be worth it, but I’ll take a risk. If it won’t be worth it, I’ll just go back to Ana. If it will- I’ll let others know recovery is worth it.” So now that’s my job. Lately I haven’t been writing much.… Read More Yes, it will be worth it.
Instead of seeing my regular therapist today, I met with a new one. This time it’s a lady. She had red eyes (or so it seemed) & was quick to speak. She imitated my body language to the T. She used reflective speaking (“So it seems you are saying…“) Lol. Sorry ladies & gents, I appreciate the effort,… Read More New Therapist: Friend or Foe
“Stop thinking so far ahead, Anna,” my mom’s wisdom would often say. “In the Bible it’s written not to worry about tomorrow!” To the same tune, the Religious Folks chanted, “You should trust God, you need to grow in faith, sister!” So, of course, as I always tended to do- I beat myself up. You… Read More The Flawless Flaw.
We all know there’s a time for everything. Seasons change. Battles are fought. Freedom is sought after throughout all time. My name is Anna and I chose Jesus. You are you. You choose what you believe in. From the beginning, God gave humanity a choice. He never forced His wonderful Self onto us. He’s far too… Read More Thriving in your time.