Last week, I got a new book called “Almost Anorexic.” As I began reading it, I could heard Ana’s voice whisper, “That was you! You weren’t REALLY anorexic! Why don’t we try this again? You can do ‘better’ (a.k.a. get smaller) than where you were before!” (In my head I hear Ludacris rapping “How low can you go?”) But even Cady… Read More ED as a 1st priority.
ED Recovery-ish Stuff: “Set Point Theory” (Study) The Effects of Under-eating (Article) Random: Personality Test (free) My result: Encouraging God stuff: Overcoming A Storm (newsletter) Struggles used for God’s glory (blog) “Truths” we allow into our lives (blog) And at least one music video: This song never gets annoying! “Legacy”
(Technically I still have 2 days left. But since Tuesday’s are #TransformationTuesday’s, I’m sharing this today.) One year ago, I made the conscious decision to expose a secret I was smothered by for nearly 4 years: Anorexia. Since then my life has radically changed. I cannot even explain how hard the journey of recovery has been-… Read More 1 YEAR ED-IVERSARY!
ED mentalities are tricky little (actually, not-so little) monsters. If you struggle with an ED, oftentimes you either use a calorie counting app, or have nutrition facts memorized to the T, and can count your daily intake in your very own, busy head. In recovery, you usually get a meal plan. It might be strict, or it might… Read More Eating less than you think.
In one of my recent posts, I mentioned trying to get off anti-depressants. Let me trade identities with Mr.Frank for a second- I’m back on those suckers. Not because I was dying of depression, but because my body felt so exhausted! I jumped off of them way too quickly, and I had a horrible time trying… Read More Medication, boys, and real life.
Let’s play a game of interpretation. Let me help you understand what an individual who struggles, or has struggled, with an eating disorder hears when you say the things you do: Eating disorders have a language of their own. (Let me just say I write these things only to help the communication between someone who… Read More 10 Triggering Comments an ED person hears:
I call my sister. “How’s your day?” she asks. She always knows there’s a reason I call, especially if it’s during my time at work. “It was good, until like the last two hours,” I reply. She asks why. “I just feel bad. I feel bad about eating,” I say. It was just yesterday that she… Read More The little crash.
Ed is a life-sucker. Ana wants your loyalty above every relationship. Like an addiction, you find yourself making excuses, befriending denial, and even treating the ones you love most like a B when it comes to your food and your rituals. After a month of half-crapping The Recovery Life, I decided yesterday that I would invite… Read More golden nuggets.
So weird. I got my 3rd consecutive period yesterday. 🙂 Yay! I’m weight restored. I feel strong. And… I cried and freaked out about eating this corn/bean/tortilla soup: I was in the middle of writing yesterday, when my sister (ever so kindly) came to my room at 7 pm with a bowl. She brought me… Read More The Saga of Sad Soup.
There’s something so freeing about disconnecting sometimes. Away from all the noise, be it the noise inside your mind. Forgetting your phone purposely, not using FB for days, and just focusing on what you’re doing right now, this very moment. One thing I’m trying to practice is mindfulness. As I write, I fully think about… Read More Yes or no.