Option A: Fully let go of all control, restrictions, and forbidden foods. Allow your body to rest as long as it needs. Option B: Baby steps. Long, constant, grueling baby steps. Instead of skipping dinner you eat a bowl of broccoli. A few months later, instead of eating egg whites you eat the egg with… Read More 2 Types of Recovery.
It’s weird when you just blend in. You’ve been standing out (or in your mind you have) for so long, it gave you validation. Then, you look around and see you’re no different really. At that point, you can do 1 of 2 things: A. Get back to that place that made you stand out… Read More Just like er’ryone else.
It’s you who always tells me I’ve gone wrong. That weight gain is MY fault, but it’s YOURS. You’ve made me cry more tears in one year than I could have imagined. You always tell me I might as well die. You say there is no more hope for me now. You sneaked into my life, introduced yourself through… Read More Dear Ed,
If you give a mouse a cookie or, You choose to leave a cult- Be careful cuz ‘You’re Crazy‘ ‘You’ve fallen’ & ‘You’re cold’ …Or, maybe ‘You’re just lazy.’ You dare once ask a question, Soon they’ll start asking you: “Who do you think you are?” Who me? Who are you talking to? “What do you… Read More If You Choose To Leave A Cult- my little poem
‘Tis a funny moment I encountered as I drove home just a few days ago. I was listening to Pandora (upbeat music of course) when a song came on that intrigued me. All I heard from it was “Celebrate the Rain,” so of course, I felt like I’m trying to “celebrate the rain” in my… Read More It’s a heart issue.
“Stop thinking so far ahead, Anna,” my mom’s wisdom would often say. “In the Bible it’s written not to worry about tomorrow!” To the same tune, the Religious Folks chanted, “You should trust God, you need to grow in faith, sister!” So, of course, as I always tended to do- I beat myself up. You… Read More The Flawless Flaw.
I want to make a list of things that have changed since July 5th, 2015. Today marks exactly 6 months from the day I talked to my doctor and was diagnosed with being underweight, having amenorrhea, vitamin deficiency, and an eating disorder. Most days have been hard, I’m not gonna lie. Quitting drugs, having my heart broken, etc.… Read More My 6-Month Miniversary
I woke up early this morning, Dec 31st, the last day of 2015. Yesterday I thought I wouldn’t have time to write the post I promised to, but hey here I am, wide awake to tell you a story. In previous posts I’ve talked about insecurities and different factors that contributed to my eating disorder. Today,… Read More 2015 ED exposed (TW)
Autobiography In Five Short Chapters Chapter I I walk down the street. There is a deep hole in the sidewalk. I fall in. I am lost… I am hopeless. It isn’t my fault. It takes forever to find a way out. Chapter II I walk down the same street. There is a deep hole in… Read More I’ll take a new route this time: Radical Acceptance
This aint his eye. It’s mine. But looking in a human’s eyes I once saw freedom: Read on. Once upon my religious time, I met a man. As he spoke to me I literally felt like it was God. I lost all sense of time and fear. As I looked in his eyes I felt:… Read More The God-Man.