My entire life I’ve been Christian. Even more so, I was a Christian who grew up in an overwhelmingly religious environment. The rules were: No saying “Oh my God” No secular music or Christian music that belonged to the rock or rap genre No hair dying, nail coloring, or makeup wearing No having short hair No… Read More The ONE time I got mad at God
Last week, I got a new book called “Almost Anorexic.” As I began reading it, I could heard Ana’s voice whisper, “That was you! You weren’t REALLY anorexic! Why don’t we try this again? You can do ‘better’ (a.k.a. get smaller) than where you were before!” (In my head I hear Ludacris rapping “How low can you go?”) But even Cady… Read More ED as a 1st priority.
(Technically I still have 2 days left. But since Tuesday’s are #TransformationTuesday’s, I’m sharing this today.) One year ago, I made the conscious decision to expose a secret I was smothered by for nearly 4 years: Anorexia. Since then my life has radically changed. I cannot even explain how hard the journey of recovery has been-… Read More 1 YEAR ED-IVERSARY!
ED mentalities are tricky little (actually, not-so little) monsters. If you struggle with an ED, oftentimes you either use a calorie counting app, or have nutrition facts memorized to the T, and can count your daily intake in your very own, busy head. In recovery, you usually get a meal plan. It might be strict, or it might… Read More Eating less than you think.
I haven’t written in ages it seems! After finishing spring semester I jumped into summer classes. They freakin overwhelmed me, but I AM nearly finished! Thank God. Over these busy months I’ve noticed I put ED recovery efforts on the back burner. Being “too busy” is really just an excuse to not push further. I’ve… Read More 10 Months Down.
For my Issues in Diversity class, I had to come up with a “Changemaker” presentation. So wherever you have a bias, you participate in an event and interview the type of person you have a bias against. I chose to do the over-weight population. In the middle of my ED, I used a lot of… Read More Death.
Last summer I told myself, “I shall try recovery. I don’t think it will be worth it, but I’ll take a risk. If it won’t be worth it, I’ll just go back to Ana. If it will- I’ll let others know recovery is worth it.” So now that’s my job. Lately I haven’t been writing much.… Read More Yes, it will be worth it.
(Ep.3: Ed Lies Debunked) Today’s lie: “Recovery won’t take long.” Everyone tells you recovery is going to take a while. More than a few weeks, more than a few months, and maybe more than a year. If you’re the conquistador I am, you’ve said (or at least thought): “I can do this! I’ll recover and in… Read More Recovery won’t take long. Ep.3
(Ep.2: Ed Lies Debunked) Today’s lie: “You can eat like that, but I can’t. When you’ve got some eating issues, you look at others and are forgiving of them. It’s easy to think, “Well, maybe you can eat like that, but I can’t. The diet you have, doesn’t make you huge. If I were to eat… Read More You can eat like that, but I can’t. Ep.2
Today’s lie: “I didn’t feel fat back then.” [I’ll be starting a new series of blog posts about certain lies ED likes for us to believe. In a sense, it will be like “Mythbusters!”] In recovery, or after, maybe even if you’ve never had an ED but were thinner before-it’s easy to think (especially after… Read More I didn’t feel fat back then. (Ep.1: Ed Lies Debunked)