ED mentalities are tricky little (actually, not-so little) monsters. If you struggle with an ED, oftentimes you either use a calorie counting app, or have nutrition facts memorized to the T, and can count your daily intake in your very own, busy head. In recovery, you usually get a meal plan. It might be strict, or it might… Read More Eating less than you think.
Let’s play a game of interpretation. Let me help you understand what an individual who struggles, or has struggled, with an eating disorder hears when you say the things you do: Eating disorders have a language of their own. (Let me just say I write these things only to help the communication between someone who… Read More 10 Triggering Comments an ED person hears:
(Ep.2: Ed Lies Debunked) Today’s lie: “You can eat like that, but I can’t. When you’ve got some eating issues, you look at others and are forgiving of them. It’s easy to think, “Well, maybe you can eat like that, but I can’t. The diet you have, doesn’t make you huge. If I were to eat… Read More You can eat like that, but I can’t. Ep.2
Today’s lie: “I didn’t feel fat back then.” [I’ll be starting a new series of blog posts about certain lies ED likes for us to believe. In a sense, it will be like “Mythbusters!”] In recovery, or after, maybe even if you’ve never had an ED but were thinner before-it’s easy to think (especially after… Read More I didn’t feel fat back then. (Ep.1: Ed Lies Debunked)
My wardrobe has changed at least 4 times. I’ve gone up about 5 sizes. (Nobody told me to expect that in recovery!) Getting dressed used to be simple, now it’s a bit of a stress. Put a shirt on- too tight, slip some pants on- visible bulges, skirt and leggings- have to pull the back part… Read More The Shopping Challenge
I wake up feeling rested. My sleeping has improved quite a bit. I have my cup of Joe, but don’t feel like eating yet. I start getting ready, brushing my hair. I “body-check” my back. Ed screams, “Back rolls! You’ve got back rolls, you’ve NEVER had back rolls!” I panic. I lose it just a… Read More Ed Attack.
So weird. I got my 3rd consecutive period yesterday. 🙂 Yay! I’m weight restored. I feel strong. And… I cried and freaked out about eating this corn/bean/tortilla soup: I was in the middle of writing yesterday, when my sister (ever so kindly) came to my room at 7 pm with a bowl. She brought me… Read More The Saga of Sad Soup.
I am a receptionist. Not forever, but now. I learned a valuable lesson just a few days ago. I proceed to share: This past week, I needed to make a medical appointment. It was urgent- very urgent, or so I felt. I called my usual clinic first. The receptionist was quick to let me know… Read More Receptionism.