My entire life I’ve been Christian. Even more so, I was a Christian who grew up in an overwhelmingly religious environment. The rules were: No saying “Oh my God” No secular music or Christian music that belonged to the rock or rap genre No hair dying, nail coloring, or makeup wearing No having short hair No… Read More The ONE time I got mad at God
Last week, I got a new book called “Almost Anorexic.” As I began reading it, I could heard Ana’s voice whisper, “That was you! You weren’t REALLY anorexic! Why don’t we try this again? You can do ‘better’ (a.k.a. get smaller) than where you were before!” (In my head I hear Ludacris rapping “How low can you go?”) But even Cady… Read More ED as a 1st priority.
(Technically I still have 2 days left. But since Tuesday’s are #TransformationTuesday’s, I’m sharing this today.) One year ago, I made the conscious decision to expose a secret I was smothered by for nearly 4 years: Anorexia. Since then my life has radically changed. I cannot even explain how hard the journey of recovery has been-… Read More 1 YEAR ED-IVERSARY!
ED mentalities are tricky little (actually, not-so little) monsters. If you struggle with an ED, oftentimes you either use a calorie counting app, or have nutrition facts memorized to the T, and can count your daily intake in your very own, busy head. In recovery, you usually get a meal plan. It might be strict, or it might… Read More Eating less than you think.
Let’s play a game of interpretation. Let me help you understand what an individual who struggles, or has struggled, with an eating disorder hears when you say the things you do: Eating disorders have a language of their own. (Let me just say I write these things only to help the communication between someone who… Read More 10 Triggering Comments an ED person hears:
I call my sister. “How’s your day?” she asks. She always knows there’s a reason I call, especially if it’s during my time at work. “It was good, until like the last two hours,” I reply. She asks why. “I just feel bad. I feel bad about eating,” I say. It was just yesterday that she… Read More The little crash.
For my Issues in Diversity class, I had to come up with a “Changemaker” presentation. So wherever you have a bias, you participate in an event and interview the type of person you have a bias against. I chose to do the over-weight population. In the middle of my ED, I used a lot of… Read More Death.
(Ep.3: Ed Lies Debunked) Today’s lie: “Recovery won’t take long.” Everyone tells you recovery is going to take a while. More than a few weeks, more than a few months, and maybe more than a year. If you’re the conquistador I am, you’ve said (or at least thought): “I can do this! I’ll recover and in… Read More Recovery won’t take long. Ep.3
(Ep.2: Ed Lies Debunked) Today’s lie: “You can eat like that, but I can’t. When you’ve got some eating issues, you look at others and are forgiving of them. It’s easy to think, “Well, maybe you can eat like that, but I can’t. The diet you have, doesn’t make you huge. If I were to eat… Read More You can eat like that, but I can’t. Ep.2
Option A: Fully let go of all control, restrictions, and forbidden foods. Allow your body to rest as long as it needs. Option B: Baby steps. Long, constant, grueling baby steps. Instead of skipping dinner you eat a bowl of broccoli. A few months later, instead of eating egg whites you eat the egg with… Read More 2 Types of Recovery.